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February 20, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | 19 Comments

gracey’s 11: photography, an art?


I really find the answer to that question very obvious. ahuh?!

It’s definitely YES!!!

But to prove it…No, no, no, it’s a hard task..

For me, photography is not a simple activity.

It requires skills – artistic skills..

We do not simply take photographs.. WE MAKE THEM!

We make them through a frame we use – a part of the world we want to see. We choose to see what we want to..The frame enables us to do it.

We choose what we want to document.. We include good memories and experiences.. and even the bad and darkest ones we keep. All of them are framed in a photograph. so Obvious not to see..

Photography is an art – because photographs like music provokes emotions, like dance it makes us move, like drama it makes us cry, and like literature we make to express..

Photography is an art – it brings colorful memories to life..


February 3, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

gracey’s 10: Babel



The tower..different languages..chaos…the word is LISTEN!

It’s good that movies like “BAbel” are made to make people understand a certain important value, more than entertaining its audience. One important element that made the movie interesting all throughout are the 4 stories that may appear to be visually ( because of the lighting and cinematography) different, but in the later were intertwined.

If you are just going to watch the film and observe what will happen next without taking in consideration that these events did not happen all in the same time, you will definitely not understand the film.MOreover,the film happened in different places, with different languages and even different beliefs. But though we cannot enter into their world, we can travel with them through the action space of the film as we feel and see that there is movement from one place to another. Through the series of events that may not be related, but are connected through the central idea, we can easily follow the story.

BUt what is good about the film is, all the details included in the movie were cleared throughout the end. There were some confusions at first, unto what happened first, and last, but the style that was employed did not gave a hard time to the viewers to understand eventually.

The scenes may not be full of action, but the motion of the film was fast since the characters in the movie, taking consideration – Brad’s Character in Morocco, and Gael’s character in the chasing scene, was involved in a kind of situation were there was that kind of tension that made the audience’s vision move fast and kept them attentive to what’s going to happen next.

The places that were featured in the film were definitely away from each other, and because of this, we can see the different lifestyles, belief and ways that happen across cultures.. It even added to the that kind of feeling that was established by the shots taken in the film, on the idea that it is really very hard to understand each other because of different languages.


The Character, Audience and the Actor

Brad Pitt


The loving husband, who doens’t know what to do after waking up seeing her wife shot by a bullet from nowhere to be found.. The character that swallowed the once admired and adored lovable face of Brad and turned him into an aged father and husband. He was full of tense althroughout the movie. NO one wants to help him. He was full of tension, and it can be seen. We may no be in his presence, but he was able to let us feel the grief and worry he feels..

Cate Blanchett


The wife who is the victim of a stray bullet not intentionally prepared for her.. her struggles were the central emotion you would want to watch althroughout. She kept strong though dying, she kept trustful though she was betrayed in a certain place very strange to her. The character that seemingly makes us feel and wonderif hopes do still have true meaning?

Rinko Kikuchi


The deaf mute girl who wants to be noticed, cared and understood. All she wanted was someone who will love her, and make her feel like a real woman. She was full of hatred – to all the people who looks down to her. She was totally deaf – not only physically- but to all the things she should know, she should experience. She was incomplete.

Adriana Barraza


True love she had for the two kids – more pure than anyone. Is it really hard to believe that someone who may be from a different race love two kids from a different nation? The character she made may not be that important, but undeniably, her character is also one of those who made an impact to the hearts of the people.

The two Morrocan Boys

Innocence. Curiosity. Incest. Regret. Failing Hopes.

People – all of them seemed to be different. Everyone of them wants to be understood.

Yet no one listens.

February 3, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

gracey’s 9: In the Mood for What??

In the mood for what?

for LOve?

LOve? what’s that?

How can you really define love as something positive when it is something that makes people do “wrong” things? Oh well, how can you even say that what he/she does is wrong or right? Who makes the list of the things we should and should not do for love? Or who knows if we really are loving or not?

well, just so many questions, but not related to this entry. Aha! (Bluffing my way out?) No, just making a kind of “pasakalye” to a discussion on a certain love that people share..

The movie “in the mood for love” made us “peep” on a certain story of love that developed through two persons who were betrayed by their loved ones. Ironic? No, too common. This situation happens to many people, what is unique is that the two people involved happens to love the legal partner of their partner’s new partners.(what/?) well, you try to understand that?


It’s simple. Since both of them are hurt by their partners’ adultery, they seem to understand each other. Then comes the struggle in hiding what they really feel for each other. Here we spectators, then try to discover what will happen next to this unfateful story.

We then look at the characters, try to catch their activities up. The camera acts for us. We caress the woman’s body without getting noticed. We try to hide through walls just to see them, and not miss anything.


Aha! Here come’s the reality. HOw the camera works depends on the need to do it. In the movie, the camera does close up shots to focus on certain emotions. At times it does a very tremendous focus on the woman’s body focusing on sensitive and sensual parts. (the cameraman for sure is a “man” huh?!) Sometimes the camera even moves from afar or from the weirdest angle it could start. We are then trained by the camera to become a great “peeping tom”.

We the spectators are given a view which is very framed. Well, we cannot see everything mainly because we are just “peeping”, gets? So as we tried to discover the development in their love story, there are things that we are not able to see- and we are left to find out. We did, in the long run. How the world seems to be so small and that everything seems to be so “coincidence”.

Here’s another scoop. The music added to the sensuality of the movie. Moreover it made us feel that sooner or later, the couple will be caught – by the truth that they cannot be together because of the reality that is in front of them.

So what’s that love that people wants to share? It’s simple, A love for hiding something through themselves, while at the same time, loving the though that people might discover what is inside them. (Deep…) 🙂

February 3, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

gracey’s 8: Behind Fame are shadows


The movie Citizen Kane was made way back 1940’s.. You can observe it right away.With the black and white film, and the classic hair style and gowns, you will realize that you are watching a film that is decades older than you.. Let’s go back in time and discover how should we see and interpret the Film citizen Kane.

Lighting etc.

As we watch the film we can easily see that the kind of lighting wants to establish that the events happened many years ago. The black and white screen were not just merely effects, but the reflection of the technology way back before.

In the early years where the life of Charles was still bountiful and very young, the lighting that was employed was very bright. We see that towards the end, the lighting eventually turned into almost darkness, reflecting on the dark and unfortunate events that happened in the later years of Charles.

The camera and shots

The camera used as our own vision of the film was very subjective in a sense that sometimes, it focuses on certain elements that the director really wants the viewers to see. There were times also were there were deep focus shots on the characters in the film, that established there kind of personality, and the emotion they had in the film.

The PLace and Set

One aspsect of the film that I was interested most was the Xanadu- the seemingly isolated place where Charles and Susan stayed for their remaning years. We observed that at the establishing shot that the movie had at the first part, we see that the place seems to be so dark and full of loneliness. It’s interior which was shown in the later part of the story refelcted how big the place for the two of them, and the feeling of melancholy was all over the place.


The cast of characters were greatly chosen as they represent each character well. Through the early times, the Charles character was represented with bright features and light facial expressions. The characters in the film ages through time.


The film is non-linear in presenting the events. The movie used flashback and uses different kinds of effects for transition like dissolves (which they used frequently) and cuts at times.

February 3, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Gracey’s 7 : “Cremaster” I get so weird..

We watched this film and I really find it so weird. I really do not understand the movie. My teacher even asked me if I really have to understand it or I just have to simply watch it.

Well then I realized what really performance art is all about. It doesn’t emphasize on performance, but rather on “art” itself.


I really wonder how Matthew barney categorized his ideas and placed it in the movie separating it visually through that certain “floors” in the museum..

That was the first abstract expressionist film ( i hope im right) I watched and for me, it really appeared so crazy.. BUt it ended well, and not until I read the synopsis that I understood what the symbols in the film stood for. But seemingly, it still appeared to vague for me.. 😦

well, il try to make my own interpretation of the video okay?

The main character Barney wants to change the world. he wants to share to others what the world should be – free and spontaneous. He experiences conflict between 2 bands playing in one of the floors of the museum. He tried to get rid of them. Barney was on his way to the worker to help him build the future since Barney believed that the worker still doesn’t posses the right level of understanding.

He sees the group of women dancing, and he was saddened by the fact that the people seems to be so monotonous. They do the same things again and again and they are “uniformed”. They are made to look, feel, and act just like others and they cannot be free.

As the main character continues his journey, he meets this girl with a glass feet/shoe or whatever you call it and saw that the girl was prisoned by herself. He tried to save the girl but the girl changed into a half cat/leopard whatever -half human creature (how is that??) The girl now becomes the temptation for our hero. He was defeated at first and fell to the ground.

The girls who are synchronized and uniformed helped him. He was weakened, but he was more inspired to finish his task.

In the end, our main character managed to keep his work and goal higher that anything else as he succeded in his mission. He deafeted the temptation, and was able to meet the worker as he wanted to help the worker in building a better world – spontaneous and free.

So, is my interpretation weird or what? well, blame it on that piece of art men! :-p

January 24, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Gracey’s 6: The most wonderful gay!

Rich Kiamco, the performer and writer of the solo-performance “unaccessorized” is one of the most amazing, wonderful, and beautiful performers I’ve seen in my whole life.


His performance is also one of the best I’ve ever seen. Well, it was my first time to see a solo performance with that high level, and I know that it is incomparable to other’s I have already seen.

One aspect that made the performance good in my own view is that it was a biography of a person who is an artist by heart. The story of his life made his performance a success since it was filled with real emotions, experiences, feelings and dreams by himself. HIs struggles to attain a certain level of contentment in life made the story even more interesting. With that I can say his life soooo unique.

How the lines were constructed and delivered gave justice to his story. The performance was comic althroughout, but the sadness and deep aspiration in his inner side can be felt. Rich has the talent to make people know, at the same time, feel what he has inside. The story did not end in a very happy way, but atleast we, the audience realize one important value in life- that the things that can really make us truly happy, are not the things we can touch or see, but the things that we can feel and experience.

January 24, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Gracey’s 5 : The Masterpiece

Antigong Agong is my subject for this entry, and the work of Aristotle is my framework..hmmm How do i start this? Let’s try..


The play followed a common and usual flow of events where introduction of the characters started the play, it developed a sort of spice when the time a certain conlict was introduced. The major character was required by his love’s father to give dowry before he can marry the girl. The story somehow presented it’s climactic part when the group went to the Bundok Dahu and discovered what really happened in the place 100 years ago. The story ended with the series of events of going back to reality by the characters where all of them had their own realizations and the dowry issue was solved.

The characters, sam and amraida will be my focus on this part. The actors portrayed the characters in a so-so manner. They had provided us with quality portrayal, as Sam’s character is a 20 year old man wanting to marry his childhood friend Amraida who is with a higher social status. The actors tried to project the characters, with their actions and speeches.

I observed that the play really chose their actors very well in a sense that they were just appropriate, and they were somehow true (maybe with the fact that they are muslims just like the characters they are portraying).


The actors in the play antigong agong appeared to be so authentic while dressed in their Muslim Costume. They are made up in such a way that they really look like Muslim people(well, some of them are, and some of them are not). The stage was designed with those gigantic structures made of bamboos..Well, fantastic, but it gave me a hard time to focus on certain parts of the story (at times). The stage was so huge I can’t fit the whole thing to my eyes..But I say, it’s appropriate.


Hmm..the play was made with tragic history, a story reflecting the reality, and lines that made it so comedy..Well, Maybe some are really intended so as to give spice to the play and to avoid making it to a boring and dramatic presentation. I should say that the lines are so realistic, they really have that knowledge about the Tausug Culture, huh?.


Wow, I really love the girl who sang their songs and made a different impact to the musical aspect of the play. The melody and the music projected the mood of each scene in the play and they were succesful in making it. They really made the audience feel the emotion they want to express through their music and sound effects.


How can a play succesfully share the same thought the writers have in mind to the audience thay have? Well, let’s ask Bud Dahu writers for that..It is so amazing that the lines and formation of sentences are greatly done as they bear the thought of the play. Lines are made through considering the audience, so as the audience may react and can relate easily. The Language used was understandable, at times they shift to Tausug Dialect to project their culture and make the play more realistic. The emotions were shared to the audience to feel and appreciate.


I therefore conclude that Antigong Agong is a masterpiece.

January 21, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Gracey’s 4: Antigong Agong

Isa ako sa mga Usherettes sa play na ito. At pagkatapos mapanood ang kabuuan ng play, wala akong pagsisisi na nag-volunteer ako. It’s simply just amazing!

Minsan kapag tayo ay nanonood ng mga dula, sa eskwelahan man o sa mga cultural centers at iba pa, malimit natin inuunang itanong kung ano ang istorya ng play na ating panonoorin. Minsan naman, sa tiket palang na ating binibili, makakakita na tayo ng isang maikling background kung tungkol sa ano ang dulang panonoorin. Pero sa karanasan kong manood ng Antigong Agong, hindi lamang istorya ang naghikayat sa akin na manood, kundi ang katotohanan na ito ay istorya ng Mindanao, Dulang MIndanao, at likhang Mindanao. Ito ay bagama’t repleksyon din ng aking pagkatao, at pagka Pilipino.

Masayang mapanood ang isang “authentic” Mindanao creation na nagsasalamin sa maraming paghihirap at pagsusumikap ng aking mga kababayan.


January 11, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | 1 Comment

Gracey’s 3: Konting tanong para sa Sining..

Ang pelikulang “tuhog” ay nagbigay sa akin ng isang magandang halimbawa kung paano nagagawa ng tao na “gahasain” at “abusohin” ang mga natural na bagay para sa ngalan daw ng “sining”. Isang tanong tuloy ay pumasok sa aking isipan, “Ano nga ba ang basehan, para ang isang bagay ay masabing likhang sining” at paano ito masasabing “distortion”?


Isang mahalagang kaalaman ay naibahagi sa akin ni Aristotle sa kanyang obra na “On Poetics”. Ayon sa kanya, ” the difference in the imitation of these arts come under three heads, their means, their objects, and their manner..” Sa bawat pagsusuri ko tuloy sa mga bagay na ginagawa ng mga tao sa aking paligid, hinahanap ko ang tatlong aspetong ito. Sa ngayon, mas pinapalawak ko muna ang aking kaalaman upang maberipika ko ang aking pagkakaintindi sa mga konseptong ito. Balik sa pelikulang “tuhog”, nakakalungkot na hindi ata naging patas, at maktotohanan ang mga konseptong ginamit, dahil ito’y naging pawang likha ng sobrang paglalagay ng “arte” sa kung nao ang nangyari sa totoong buhay. Sa huling bahagi pa ng paelikula, nabatid naming mga manonood kung gaano ka grabe ang epekto ng maling pagpapahayag-biswal sa pag-iisip ng mga taong tumatanggap ng mga impormasyon. MAs lalong nagiging kapanipaniwala ang isang kasinungaling maganda lamang ang pagkakapresenta.

PArang komedya, ayon kay Aristotle. ” It has been observed, as for Comedy, that an imitation of men is worse than the average; worse, however not as regars any and every sort of fault, but only as regards one particular kind- the RIdiculous which is a specie of the Ugly”. NAbatid naman namin, bilang mga third degree na tagapagtanggap ng mensahe, ang kapangitan ng kopya ng kopya ng kopyang nanggaling pa sa malayong “main source” ng isang istorya. NApakahalaga na dapat ko pang mas lalaong intindihin ang mga bagay na ito upang mas lalo akong makapagpaliwanag ng mabuti tungkol sa mga bagay na maituturing kong pangit dahil sa mga aspetong nabanggit ko sa blog na ito.

January 11, 2007 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment